2020. Sorrow, deeper than the ocean... lingered in my being.
"I gave all my heart, all my life- and to whom? When did I sign for all of this, and why?!"
Witnessing all the loses and sufferings of the human race brought a great shadow into my heart. And, as the ancient idea of The Source like an unmerciful entity, who punishes the ones who are not the most obedient, started having sense... the feelings of anger, betrayal and abandonment grew stronger...
It took me months to embrace what there is with Grace... to accept that every soul has its own path... and that each and every path, no matter how painful of unpleasant might be- is truly unique and beautiful, as each and every single one brings a valuable lesson- a lesson the particular soul has chosen and needed to learn. In all there is, a life time is nothing but a blink of an eye. Very important one, though, but still- nothing but a blink. It's a blink we decided to give, so we can be able to receive...
Today, I share a story that, beside a river of tears, brought immense healing to my life and help me to renew the most important relationship with my life- the one with The It:
(K. Kovač Photography)
" One night I dreamed a dream.
As I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
One belonging to me and one to my Lord.
After the last scene of my life flashed before me,
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
I noticed that at many times along the path of my life,
especially at the very lowest and saddest times,
there was only one set of footprints.
This really troubled me, so I asked the Lord about it.
"Lord, you said once I decided to follow you,
You'd walk with me all the way.
But I noticed that during the saddest and most troublesome times of my life,
there was only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why, when I needed You the most, You would leave me."
He whispered, "My precious child, I love you and will never leave you
Never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you." - Unknown author ️
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